Just Thoughts

The past month has been a pretty interesting one for me to say the least. I have been writing a lot, mostly personal journals, but this one is good enough to share abroad.

I was thinking and reading in the Bible today and was reminded of this verse

Love never gives up, never loses faith, is always hopeful, and endures through every circumstance. 1Cor 13:7NLT

Coming out of where I have been it would be really easy to see this as holding on. I want the ones closest to me to know that this is not the case. This actually in all essence instead is me being free, because I know how to love. I know what this means. I know how to put this into action. I'm proud of myself for it and am better for it.

Someone once gave me this quote.

"The Faithless know the trivial side of love, it is the faithful that know loves tragedies."

But when I researched it. I realized the author Oscar Wilde actually wrote it completely opposite. The proper quote is

"Those who are faithful know only the trivial side of love: it is the faithless who know love's tragedies."

Funny enough, Depending on how you look at it, it works both ways. Its always easier to see and think that what you lost is more than someone else, but loss is loss no matter how you slice it.

Its so easy when things don't turn out our way to throw away the entire experience as if everything was bad. God allowed me (due to my own stubbornness) to go through the wilderness for a while for something that may (or may not) have taken a lot less time to learn if I decided to be faithful to Him first. I lost sight of where I was supposed to be. I didn't listen to what I knew to do and have suffered many a consequence for it. But even in the middle of things that on the outside look bad. to me in the long run its actually GOOD! What i learned could not have been taught or told to me any other way. and I know I am better for it. I know who I am, and where I'm going, and what I am capable of because of this. Theres a verse that says (summary) What Man May Intend for Evil God Can Mean for Good. Its funny how that is true.

But theres something about truth. Theres something to the saying that the Truth will Set You Free, see because I'm able to face myself every morning and know my heart and know my intention, and know the beauty behind it all. I can see how something intended for evil turned out good for me. I'm grateful for the experience and I know that my heart is capable of great love and I know as a great person I deserve a great love back.

So yes love doesn't give up.....

Love doesn't loose faith.....

Love is Always Hopeful....

Love endures through every circumstance....

I know these things because I lived them. In spite and Despite I lived them, and now without a doubt. I can live it again.